A Perfectly Cromulent Girl

Hey guys! I know I haven’t been around much lately – to be honest, I’ve kind of reached the point where just turning on the computer seems like a huge effort I can’t be bothered with. Which would make sense if I was depressed – but I’m not! Far from it actually; I’ve been doing great lately – therapy has actually helped me a lot for once, and I’m looking forward to rejoining the ranks of the employed in the near future.

I’m not going back to teaching – I’ve finally made peace with the fact that it’s just not the career for me, and that there’s far worse things in life than not using the degree I spent three years getting. I’m ready to count it as ‘life experience’ rather than ‘a waste of time’ and just let it go. Seriously, my outlook on life right now is so freaking healthy it’s slightly scary. Where’d the bitter, cynical, woe-is-me Erin go? Beats me, but I don’t miss her.

Anyhoo – I’ve been meaning to link to my Oz Magi story on my journal, so here it is: Addiction, which I wrote for lisacali (and I’m glad it did turn out to be her – maybe I’m just being mean, but I really didn’t want to write a fic for someone I don’t even know; and there were so many people I’ve never heard of who made Magi requests this time around). Anyway, I was actually quite pleased with how my fic turned out this year. It wasn’t until afterwards that I realised it bears a more-than-passing resemblance to a scene from Dargie’s ‘Rough Trade’ AU, but… meh *shrugs shoulders*. I’m still happy with it.

( 80s Meme and Google Meme )

*yawn*. 'Tis late Christmas night here, and I have had an exhausting day, which I shall go into more detail about tomorrow, but for now, let me wish you all Merry Christmas and Blessed Yule!

Now, I have some Oz fic to share (yayz!), which was written partly for rileyc and partly for myself. A while back, rileyc mentioned that she would love some holiday-themed B/K fic, and I desperately wanted to supply it, but didn't think I could, since my muses have MIA for a distressingly long time (I have been unable to write anything in over a year, guys!)

But then one morning, while hovering between 'asleep' and 'awake', a teeny tiny snippet of dialogue floated into my head, and this li'l piece of somethin'-somethin' was built around that. Right now, I am so freaking pleased with myself for actually starting a fic, and finishing it, that it could be the worst story in the world, and I'd still be insanely proud of it. Luckily, this is not the worst story in the world, but I'm not sure it's exactly what rileyc had in mind either, as it's not really romantic, as much as cute and fluffy and domestic. However, I do hope you enjoy it anyway, sweetie.

( 'A Family Christmas' )

blackchaps has finally started posting the Beecher/Stabler fic that I've been looking over for her - and seriously, you must go read it. It's a loooong one - she's only posted about half of the first part and there's more to come, but goddamn, you don't want it to end anyway! Her characterisation of Elliot and his very gradually developing feelings for Beecher ring so true, because she doesn't overlook the fact that Stabler really is the straightest straight guy ever. But the fic is so much more than their relationship - it has a plot! (I am so in awe of anyone who can actually manage that, because Lord knows I can't). And the plot is tied into the building relationship so well!

So please go read it, and let blackchaps know that she's fabulous, because she thinks she isn't, and I don't want to be forced to beat her over the head with a lead pipe in order to knock some sense into her - but I will if I have to! ;o)

"Accidents"

If you are an SGA fan and have not yet read the novel-length Resilience - GO. READ. NOW.

It's just.... I can't.... Nnnggh.... Wooooooobiiiiieeeeeeeeee!!!!!!

*ded*

Ah, Dusty's gonna be proud of me - I actually managed to write a ficlet for Smut Day. Go me! *g*

This is also my very first foray into writing Stargate: Atlantis fic. It is of course, a complete and total PWP - there nothing of redeeming value here whatsoever. And that is most probably for the best since if I actually tried to write something clever in this fandom, I'd most likely fall flat on my face having only seen about half of Season 1.

This fic came about after I saw an icon somebody (I'm sorry, I can't remember who) was using in an SGA comm. Said icon was... mesmerising to say the least. It inspired all sorts of dirty thoughts, so I've included an enlarged version for your viewing pleasure.

( Inspiring image here )

( SGA Smutlet here )

Happy Smut Day! :-)

Somebody posted a link to a fic to the Twisted Sisterhood about Keller raping Beecher. And because I'm a masochist, I actually read the fucking thing.

Now I feel bad about complaining because it was actually an all right fic - well-written and sympathetic towards Chris and his desperation, but... but... it's just... goddammit, Keller is NOT A FUCKING RAPIST!!!!! HE'S JUST NOT!!! He is a lying, cheating, killing, unconscionable, bastard murderer, but he doesn't rape people!

Rape is not Keller's style - he loves seduction, he loves the hunt; he gets off on making people want him, especially when they shouldn't. His greatest desire is for someone to love him, no matter how bad he gets. He loves to manipulate people, to trick them into something - he does not get anywhere near as much satisfaction out of forcing them. That would defeat the point of the chase, be the easy way out, and I can only imagine that Keller would find rape boring.

Yes, in the show, it's claimed that he raped and murdered three men. And I have no doubt in my mind that he willfully killed them. But rape? I believe it must have been rough-but-consensual sex that the police decided must have been rape, since he went on to kill them. Think about it - Keller had no problem killing Mondo Browne and Ronnie Barlog, but before each murder he initiated a sex act - a consensual sex act, where he made the person he was about to kill want him. Undoubtedly, a fucked-up little power trip thrill for him, but rape? No. So why would it have been any different with the other three men?

In this particular fic, Keller's actions are blamed on just how desperately he wants Toby. But that excuse still doesn't fly. What about all the way through Season 3 and during the slut!Beecher phase of Season 4? Keller was as desperate and vulnerable as we've ever seen him, and wanted Toby more than oxygen. If he were capable of rape, would he not have struck during either of these times? Particularly Season 4, when in addition to wanting Toby, he was furious with him for accusing him of mudering his son? BUT HE DIDN'T RAPE, TOBY, BECAUSE THAT ISN'T WHAT KELLER DOES! And while I'm on this point, Keller's utter fury and painful hurt over being accused of Gary's murder, also makes the way he implicitly threatens Holly in this fic unrealistic too.

So, yeah - now I feel like a bitch for saying all this stuff about someone else's story. In all honestly, the story is good - if they were any other characters in the world, I wouldn't have a problem with it, but this is just too OOC for words. And ordinarily, I'm pretty tolerant of OOC behaviour in fics - I can almost always find an excuse for it and rationalize it, but this? It just really, really annoyed me.

Ah, I feel better now. End venting.

This is just the first two chapters of 'There Is A God - Keller Be Thy Name', which I already posted at TS months ago, but I figured I should repost them here, since I'm posting Chapter Three here now.

For anybody who didn't read these previously, this is an AU where Chris and Toby meet long before they end up in Oz (and yes, I know it's been done before, but this one has a bit of a twist *g*)

( Chapter One )

( Chapter Two )