I feel numb

So the doctor finally called - my father does have prostate cancer. It's in the early stages and it's treatable, but still... cancer. The fact that my parents are so freaking calm about it is kind of adding to my internal meltdown about the whole thing. I can kind of feel my brain shutting down and going into denial mode already. Like if I don't think about it, it's not real. But it is. I didn't realise just how much I truly believed the tests would be negative until my father casually mentioned they were positive. Stuff like this just doesn't happen in my family; no-one in my family has ever gotten cancer. So yeah, my world's been kind of rocked right now. Part of me wants to freak out and cry, but I also feel like I can't because no-one else is. Sometimes having the world's most unflappable parents is really quite annoying.